Word Up

Where are my words? I feel like writing, I do I do but it's like I have no words to say right now. Weird. I've been in a funk this week. I hate when the funk hits, when it's like I don't want to do anything. Not even sad funk just the unmotivated funk. The leave me be to sleep all day funk. Of course, that's not an option. I've been a little sick too, I wonder if my immune system is out of wack... probably.

Let's see, what's happened since I was here last? I survived our anniversary yet again. Had some close friends over because there is nothing better in the world than great family and friends, and just chilled. I didn't end up making it to the beach because I was doing a little bit of media stuff that day after school concerning Osama Bin Laden's death and my reaction. I'm bummed about not getting to the beach but it was kind of neat that anyone cared what I had to say and I always love the opportunity to tell people about my husband. I am so proud of our troops, of America and of course, and most importantly to me, of my wonderful husband. I burst with pride whenever I think of him. Whenever I think of being a Marine Wife OR a Marine Widow.
If you cared to see the 2 news pieces I did, you can go here or here and I did a radio talk show here. Of course they are just my opinions and if you differ that's fine, just do so respectfully (if your comment is disrespectful or hurtful it will just be overlooked and discarded, you'll be wasting your time).
So yeah, that was interesting. It was also a realization that I really should activate my plan to get in healthier shape (HA!)

Besides that, not much else has been going on. Just school which I'm struggling to keep up with the hours. It's difficult having mandatory hours to make and the feeling that there is no time to miss. Especially when you get sick, have a kid that gets sick, or have an undying need to travel on random days. At least at a real job you can take vacation time when you need it and you only hurt yourself by not making dollars... sigh. I'm doing my best though, and I know I will graduate I have just got to buckle up and make up some hours. I'm stoked because right now we're learning color. I've learned how to cut and now I'm learning color so I'm feeling more confident by the moment that I'll be able to start doing people's hair soon! We'll be opening up the clinic floor (meaning if you're in the Jacksonville area you should come in and get your hair did!) soon, probably in June, July at the latest, and I am getting so excited about working on real live people. I'm also super excited to learn skin care, I think that's going to interest me more than I originally anticipated.

Oh some other cool news, the magazine I've been writing for, DStripped, has gone print! A few of my articles (including a couple on myself, most recently an article about love after loss) will be in the magazine. I'm really, really excited to be published in print. This is a super big deal for me and fulfilling one of my life-long dreams to be a published writer. If you really love me (or you really love DStripped... or both!) head over to the website and order your copy today (hint hint... haha just kidding).

Well I've got the house to myself tonight, the baby's already in bed so I think it's time I order some movies on demand, make myself a bowl of ice cream, and completely veg out. I'm certain this will help the non-motivation and the waist-line... NOT... oh and hey, looks like I found some words ;)

16 comments

  1. I watched your interviews, thanks for sharing! I definitely think you found your words =)

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  2. You looked and sounded great in your television interview! Your daughter was so cute too. Now, you need to get yourself to the beach...

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  3. that video made me tear up and remind me of watching the funeral one. You did good staying strong.

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  4. Just wanted to say love reading your blog. I've been keeping up with it since last year sometime my husband was deployed about the same time as Jonny. Your story has been so touching and I love hearing how your doing good or not so fun. Wishing you all the best keep the words coming! :)

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  5. Congrats on making it to print! You should be proud of yourself. Sometimes the funk just takes over and you have to give yourself a break and have ice cream!

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  6. Congratulations on being a published writer!! Woohoo! I hope you celebrated!

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  7. I really enjoyed your articles. I was disheartened by the comments directed your way, and I hope that you continue to stay positive and not let them get you down. People in positions of privilege who have never known the sacrifice of having a loved one make the tough decision to join the military to protect this country's ideals, and who have the gall to despicably attack widows online disgust me! They will never know how fortunate they are to have men like your husband, or my brother (Army) running to take the fight to the enemy, instead of retreating behind a computer to spout venom and hatred for something they don't understand. One does not have to accept the US's wars wholeheartedly, war is brutal and painful, however, those who do not respect our Marines, Soldiers, Seaman, and other military personnel can try living in a country where no one is willing to sacrifice for the good of the masses. Sorry for the long post, but I was disturbed at the cowardly insults hurled your way. Thank you for your sacrifice, I pray I never have to understand what you're going through right now, but I accept it as my brother's fate. Semper fi.

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  8. You looked great, and were so poised! Happy Mother's Day.

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  9. I found you through my friend, Judy; you are an inspiration and I admire your strength, keep doing what you do! and congrats! That is awesome that your words will be published in print. :)

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  10. I watched your news interview. It was great. I noticed that you are a major hand talker! So am I. I married into a huge Italian family and when we all get together in one room it's like running the gauntlet for others. You have to be stealthy to avoid flying hands. I tell people to stay out of my bubble of personal space. Not because I don't like people to be close, but because I need room to talk. If I couldn't use my hands to talk, I'd be mute.

    I really appreciate how outspoken you've been. About your husband, and your pain, and your emotions. Your story has helped so many people, I'm sure. You're a blessing to the blog world and to suffering widows everywhere. Keep on keeping on. You're amazing.

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  11. I always like reading your blog and I clicked over to read your interviews and those people that commented are just horrible. They just seem like liberal ppl that don't know what it is like to be in your shoes and even though I have never been in your shoes, I don't feel they have a right to be or say what they did. Stay strong and give that little girl a hug for the rest of the country that thinks you are doing a great thing.

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  12. I think your amazing no matter what you do!! Keep up the food work... we work together to create a wonderful USA!!!
    -dispatcher

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  13. I find that my form of depression manifests as you referenced... I just want to sleep all the time. Not so much sadness anymore unless I dwell on things. Usually my non-motivation/sleep mode lasts no more than a day. Thank heavens since it's a major downer.

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  14. Sounds like your life has been moving along, congrats on your article getting published.

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  15. Please tell me Jacksonville, NC.. I love reading your blog and need my hair done so bad but am afraid to go to anyone down here!

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